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Saturday, 13 March 2010

I'm just Rambling :/

I really don't know what to write, I'm board, I'm on what? One fanfiction and three different stories? That's a lot, but I've been writing for so long it's hard not to have an overactive imagination. Trust me people if you're listening to the Hellsing opening and trying to write, it doesn't work, I may love the "Let's see if I can rip off your head" show but the song doesn't help me.

This is going to be a random entry. My whole anime group went to the park, some cosplayed (I have no idea if you guys know what that means ) one of them was Italy another was France. (Again you probably don't know what I'm talking about but it's Hetalia) if you want your head to explode from severe randomness please do watch it, actually you know what, they should have a warning, it would say

Warning: Please do not watch if you want your head to explode from severe randomness, thank you

really I personally think that anime could kill anyone with innocent thoughts.... mentally anyway. Oh and me drawing, I tried to draw Alucard (From Hellsing people) with my friend, yes you Nameless demon, don't you hide it. think mine failed... epically, then I drew the crazy lady from Alice Sacrifice, which was not without blood, I want to cosplay as Len Well I guess I'm done with my rambling

Friday, 06 November 2009

Worlds

Worlds Collide...
Worlds fall apart...
Worlds are pieced back together.
Honeythief

Sometimes I doubt the path I chose
Sometimes my dreams feel all on hold
There's no doubt that this will make me strong
Because it's the hardest thing I've ever done

Despite this cruel world
And all my best efforts
You surprise me with just how perfect you are

Even with all my flaws
And my bad examples
You surprise me with
Just how perfect you are

And when I'm lost
You search for me
And when I doubt
You're my belief

I'm suppose to be
The stronger one
You always seem
To prove that theory wrong

Still, I hold my breath each time you go
Out in the world that's beyond my control
If you are dreaming
I never want to wake you up

When I'm all in a spin
Full of cynicism
You remind me of just how perfect you are

When I'm at my wit’s end
And I'm losing my head
You remind me of just how lucky I am

~Halou

Thursday, 05 November 2009

A Random Drabble from my story Part 2

Eternity is long, people may think it would be nice... To live forever, but seeing the things I have, it's terrifying. I've lived through plague, the Thirty Years War, French Revolution, the Industrial Revolution, and so much more then needed. I'm stuck in this body, I'm dancing away in a bloodied ballroom, with chains. With the frozen corpses lost in time.

Eternity is the definition of frozen in time, it is a cloak, a never-ending cloak, it makes you conscious of how much time has past. Tick Tock Tick Tock Tick Tock. This is the sound of the cloak, it symbolizes my time. The roman numerals have faded, the wood has rotted, the glass panel is dirty, and yet I still hear the same sound, Tick Tock Tick Tock Tick Tock.

Just when I thought this cloak could get any dirtier, I met him. He had blue eyes, black hair, and a pale complexion. His eyes seemed lighter then mine, but filled with guilt all the more. We spent our times in town, near the ocean, or simple lying in bed, wrapped in each others world, having silent conversations. They did say actions where better then words.

He was the second man who could truly make me smile. I loved him, and he loved me. We had our differences, we had our old traditions, he was from Romania and I from Austria. He was so much older and wiser.

He was the person who saved me from insanity, from my lingering sorrow. Yes he saved me from many things, the invisible and the visible. He saved me from my ballroom, and the cloak of never-ending time. He was my lifeline. Yet, I lost him...

I forgot, I forgot everything, his loving embrace, his soft and passionate kisses, everything. I am now sitting alone, again with my faded away cloak, in the darkened abyss, my time started again, I'm reminded of how I have cheated death. Of how I will never die. I have lost my voice, I have lost my love, my emotions, but most importantly my memories of him.

'Oh please bring him back to me God?'
I ask,
'Oh please let him still love me.'
I ask,
'Please stop my time again?'
I ask,
'Please let me leave the dark?'
I ask,
'Please let me forget, my love?'

~The Lost and Loved
My world shatters and falls apart, I cry and I mourn, but for who exactly?
Like and angel in need we all have flaws we cannot escape, but what is it that stops the sorrow?
What is it that picks up the shattered pieces on the bloodied floor?
Do we need love? Do we cling to this emotion to pull us together?
What is love? What is Hate?
Why are such questions asked?

What is pure innocence and what is pure wickedness?
What is Happiness and what is sadness? how do we cover or emotions with masks?
Is the mask invisible or is the visible?
How do we cope with death and how do we cope with prolonged life?
How is it that Humans can be easily deceived? How can we trust the people around us?
Why are such questions asked?

Where will our life lead us? When will our destination disappear?
When will we die and when will we survive?
~The Lost and Loved

P.S. Don't know where I was going with this I heard a song and and made me kind of emotional

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I'm The Lost and Loved, I like playing piano and I love to write. I'm always interested to meet new people and I wish to make lot's of friends on this site. I'm a bit shy and stubborn, but I'm a very nice person to talk to if I have something to talk about. Hope you guys like the blog